self doubt is the pits

argh.  I hate feeling completely inadequate.  That is how I feel today.  I have a photo shoot tomorrow morning and the thought of it is driving me a little nuts.  I get absolutely terrified before a shoot.  Like I can't sleep kind of terrified.  I worry that the pictures won't turn out.  I stress out because I have convinced myself that any pictures that I have done that came out good happened by accident.  Yeah, like I sneezed causing me to raise my arms up while holding my camera and my finger just happened to press down on the button.  Then when I went to edit the picture I closed my eyes and just started randomly hitting buttons convincing myself, "God will work it out." When people are in front of me in a controlled environment expecting me to create 'great pictures'... that is some kind of heavy pressure.  I try to tell myself that if they hate their pictures we can just do a re-shoot.  But like that won't be awkward?!?!  "I hated your first go around, let's see if you have it in you for another round .. and make sure they're different .. and better."  I'm not looking for people to tell me how great my pictures are so I feel better.  Quite the opposite.  I'd rather you tell me that the only way to grow and learn is down path littered with mess ups and mistakes.  But most importantly, remind me that it's ok if it doesn't go perfect.  That people won't be outside my door threatening to burn my house down. (I do imagine people holding big sticks lit at the end like how you would think people in the middle ages would burn down a house.)  Tell me to pick up my big girl panties, hold my head high, and move on.  At the end of the day I still have two kids who still believe I'm pretty awesome.  suckers! ;)